To be more than I am (Prather)

As I look back on my life, one of the most constant and powerful things I have experienced within myself is the desire to be more than I am at the moment—an unwillingness to let myself remain where I am—a desire to increase the boundaries of myself—a desire to do more, learn more, express more—a desire to grow, improve, accomplish, expand.  I used to interpret this inner push as meaning that there was some one thing out there I wanted to do or be or have.  And I have spent too much of my life trying to find it.  But now I know that this energy within me is seeking more than the mate or the profession or the religion, more even than pleasure or power or meaning.  It is seeking out more of me…

Hugh Prather, Notes To Myself:  My Struggle To Become A Person